Then He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace.”
Quote from Pray While You’re Prey:
“Convert your passion for being [married] into a passion for a stronger relationship with Christ, and you cannot go wrong.”
Last summer, at the end of the school year, I treated myself to a massage. I am not a particularly girly girl, but I love a nice, relaxing massage and cleansing facial when they are in my budget. The massage therapist was going through her checklist of questions and asked me about back pain. I told her that I had been experiencing a lot of back pain for several months and had been getting massages as often as I could. I explained to her that about thirteen years ago, I was in four car accidents over a period of about six months. None were my fault. I was only driving in two of them. So, every now and then, my back starts to act up. She did her best with my massage and I felt a great deal of relief and relaxation, but she recommended that I see a chiropractor because she said something did not feel right.
I followed the advice of my massage therapist and made an appointment at the chiropractor. I had never been and I was a little leery of what may transpire. The doctor asked me tons of questions, looked at my mobility, traced my spine, and told me that I should get an x-ray and come back in a couple of days. I did so, and he called me in to show me my x-ray. He asked if anyone had ever mentioned to me that I had scoliosis. I replied that my sister and I were advised at a very young age to stop taking gymnastics because our doctor said we had a slight curvature, but then, no other doctor had mentioned it. He went on to show me the ‘C’ in my spine that should not be there. He also pointed out how at the top of my spine, it is nearly straight where it should be curved. That happened in one of my many accidents. Then, we looked at my hips, which were twisted because of the curve in my back. I had been compensating for this genetic ailment and it resulted in several bones being out of alignment.
Nearly every health problem that I had that year, including back pain, knee pain and headaches, could be traced to my spine being out of alignment. The doctor recommended physical therapy. I went for three days a week at first. I felt almost instant relief. Then, as time went on I went one day a week. Then, one day every other week. And now, I go when I feel out of whack or get a bad headache.
It occurred to me recently that this episode with my back was not unlike how I approached my singleness. When I was first divorced, I compensated for being single by going out with people I had no business dating, but after a while, I cleaned that part of my life up and started building my relationship with God. So, I forgot that I had a propensity toward making bad relationship choices when I entered into my next relationship. Getting over that break up was more miserable than any other breakup.
I became extremely negative about the prospect of having a successful relationship or even marriage. Some people made comments about my singleness, but no one is a harsher critic of me than me. I would say that I want to be in a relationship, but if I am truthful, I did not really believe it would happen. I thought I was too damaged, too undeserving to be loved. Then, it occurred to me that I needed to make some adjustments. I needed to adjust my spiritual walk and find satisfaction in Christ Jesus. And, I needed to adjust my thought life; I needed to stop doubting that God could send me the exact person for whom I have been waiting.
Just like the chiropractic adjustments, I need to make a blatant effort to make these adjustments daily until they become a natural part of my routine. Then, as they become more natural, I may only have to make an adjustment every once in a while when I am really in pain and I need more than what comes naturally. The point is that we have to make a choice each day to be positive and full of faith. God has proven that He is faithful and able. We must adjust our thoughts and believe.
Thank You, God for helping me make
adjustments to my spiritual walk and thought life.
Please forgive me for being overtly and subconsciously negative
about what you can do in my life .
Lord, please help me to stay positive and
help my unbelief.
In Jesus’ Name,
*Scripture quotations are from the New International Version ©1984, unless otherwise indicated.