Sixteen years ago, I was sitting in my dorm room alone. My roommate was gone and I was homesick. My best friend from home and I were not on speaking terms. My best friend at college was out with her other friends. I tried to call my mom and dad, but they didn’t pick up. I tried to call my boyfriend, but he didn’t answer. I have never felt so alone in my life. That night, I thought that since everyone who was important to me was too busy for me, their lives would be better without me. The devil really had me thinking about taking my own life for a split second. Then, I moved on to a plan of taking enough medicine to cause a panic and get the attention I craved. It was a stupid plan that probably would have killed me, but I heard a song in my spirit that reminded me of the Friend who sticks closer than a brother. The Friend who never leaves my side. The Friend who always answers when I call.
Last night, a scene on television caught me off guard. It brought a very real situation in my life to the small screen. It spoke my fear right back to me. I have to give the devil a little credit because I did not see that one coming. So, naturally, I tried to contact my best friend. Then, I tried to call my mom, but got no answer. This time, I didn’t get any crazy ideas. I decided to change the channel and then, turn the television off, so that I could rationally think through the situation. You would think that I would learn to go to God first and let Him comfort me. After all, when I look at the odds that are stacked against me for several of the things that I desire in my life, He is the only one who can perform the miracles I need. So, maybe it’s not so bad when no one answers the phone. It gives me time to go to God. (And, soon after I made the choice to look to Him and we sorted things out, my bestie texted me back). He just wants us to seek Him first. Haha, Satan, not this time buddy! Ms. EV
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