The caller was my ex boyfriend whom I have not heard from in almost a year. We have been broken up for almost four years, but he was a man that I thought I would marry and have a family with, so I have tried to remain friends with him, but we can’t seem to agree on a friendship without benefits. The last time I saw him, he tried to convince me to, how shall I say, be naughty. I refused his advances, but I still felt bad for even putting myself in the situation. And, the last time he called, I missed the call because I was still grieving after my grandmother’s passing and I wasn’t really talking to anyone. So, I called him back when I came out of my depression and told him, as a friend, what was going on, to which he replied, “I’m sorry to hear that, but I’m tired, so I’m going to bed.” And then, I didn’t hear back from him until this past weekend.
The conversation was the usual small talk, and then, the request to “visit.” In my mind, I said, “The devil is a liar!” I know what visit means. It took me a minute to learn, but I definitely know what it means when it’s after 10PM. I politely told him that it was not going to happen and I kept a smile on my face as he lied and said he’d call me the next day. The point is that I didn’t give in this time. Next time, I won’t even answer the phone. If I had let him come to my house, it would have been very hard not to let him hold me or kiss me because it has been a long time since I have had affectionate human contact. If I had let him come to my house, I might have “slipped” and knocked God’s plan for my life back a couple more years. I’m tired of doing things my way. I don’t even want to know how many opportunities I have forfeited for fleeting moments of pleasure. So, instead of inviting him over, once I calmed down (because I was mad at him for trying me, but now I understand that the devil will use people close to us), once I calmed down, I invited Jesus in and we talked until I felt asleep and I had peace. I don’t know what God is planning, but I do know what He has done and where He brought me from, and that is more than enough. Ms EV