I woke up very early this morning in somewhat of a panic. I started thinking about what I do not have in my life. I started thinking that I am not achieving enough; that I am a failure. I started wondering how I had taken a step back instead of a step forward. I started praying hard, and I eventually fell back to sleep. When I woke up and started preparing to face the day, the thoughts came right back. I felt myself start to get lost in anxiety, and then, I said, “No. Not today. Not ever!” God has been too good to me for me to let these thoughts break me down. You see, yesterday, I went back into the studio for the first time in five months and recorded my first gospel song. The song is called, “My Victory Is In My Praise.” It was the first song I have recorded that it took one take for the lead vocal. I wrote the lyrics at the beginning of the year and I had it next on my list to record, so I took a leap of faith and recorded it. The song is about using praise as a weapon to overcome your inner struggles; you know those late at night, don’t nobody know, but you and God (I know that was bad grammar) struggles that creep into the daytime sometimes. It is about praising your way through ailments, whether they are physical, mental, emotional or spiritual. It is about praising until your deliverance comes from whatever it is that has you bound; be it singleness, alcohol, cigarettes, drugs, illicit relationships, or just not living up to your potential. So, as I thought about yesterday’s recording session, and how close I felt to God, the words from my uncle Rodney’s sermon on Sunday rang in my ears, “That’s why the devil hates you!” I am not a failure. I have everything I need in my life. In fact, I am an overcomer (the red squiggly line says this is not a word, but we churchy people know that it is). So, I decided to start praising. I thanked God for helping me make some tough decisions about my life that I knew would change my ability to afford some of the luxuries that I am used to, but would free up my time to use the talents that God has bestowed upon me. I thanked Him for giving me something to write and say for almost every day of the last year. I thanked Him for keeping my head way above water even when, on paper, it looked like I should drown. I thanked God for helping work through loneliness and its associated issues. I thanked God for getting me through mourning, and giving me the opportunity to comfort others. Victory! Healing! Deliverance! It’s all in the praise and my God is able! Because you are a loyal reader of this blog, I am going to give you a preview of the new song. The preview and all of the lyrics are below. Enjoy! Ms. EV
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Okay, so I just made that title up, but I did write two new songs this week that I am very passionate about, so I will share one with you. it is called, Little Sister, and it is dedicated to all of the young women in my life, whether they are older or younger, family or friend...
The recorded version will be up on the music page very soon...Keep checking back... Little Sister © Copyright 2012 Toni L. Wortherly Little sister, dry your eyes He's not worth the tears you cry You are fearfully, wonderfully made You are beautiful in your own way Anyone who can't see God in you Isn't worth your time Anyone who loves the God that made you Won't want you to compromise Hang on in there When it seems life is passing you by Little sister Trust that when you can't figure it out God knows why Little sister There is a plan in place to take you to heights you can't even imagine But you gotta trust in Him Little sister Little sister, raise your head up Your life has only just begun Just keep praying and listening for The blessings that God has in store Learn to see the God in you Created with His purpose in mind Trust and know that God loves you Let Him rule and reign in your life Hang on in there When it seems life is passing you by Little sister Trust that when you can't figure it out God knows why Little sister There is a plan in place to take you to heights you can't even imagine But you gotta trust in Him Little sister Others may try to put you down They may laugh at your mistakes But God specializes in miracles So in Him you should place your faith Hang on in there When it seems life is passing you by Little sister Trust that when you can't figure it out God knows why Little sister There is a plan in place to take you to heights you can't even imagine But you gotta trust in Him Little sister Psalm 103:17
© Copyright Toni L. Wortherly 2004 From everlasting to everlasting Your loving kindness and Your righteousness To us who fear You Give reverence to You Your tender mercies are everlasting Your tender mercies are everlasting From everlasting to everlasting You speak to me and You guide my way When I call on You I know You hear me Your tender mercies are everlasting Your tender mercies are everlasting Holy Father I bless Your Name Your compassion is always the same Your grace is sufficient; Your love is true It is my desire to be more like You Please let me know what you think of my new music. Special thanks to my cat for not helping me sing this time :o)
I recently purchased a guitar, which my niece said was, "so random." But, I have always been a musical person. I love singing, and I love writing love songs, especially love songs to Jesus and about Jesus. In the past couple of years, I have often (too often) found myself moping and thinking about what I want, but don't have. Or, worse yet, what I have, but don't use (Oh, those God spankings are the worst). Thankfully, in one of those moments, I had the "random" thought that I should learn an instrument. I tried when I was young to no avail, and yet, in that moment I felt the strong pulling that it was the right thing to do. I figured I could use a guitar to help me write chords for my songs, so I can finally record them. In the first few days, I learned the chords and melody for "Amazing Grace," and then some techniques. But tonight, after finding the notes to a recent song. I just began to play. I commenced picking at the guitar strings and strumming what felt natural and a calm just soothed my spirit. The song had no name and no words, but it was just Jesus and I in the room and beautiful music. I have often been soothed by the sounds of someone else's musical creations, and now, God is giving me the opportunity to play my own serenades. What an awesome gift! Sometimes I complain about being alone or being single; however, there are moments like these when I discover one of God's treasures that I know may not have recognized had my time been filled with entertaining a companion, and then, I'm grateful for the "me" time. What hidden (or not-so-hidden) treasure does God want you to discover? Ask Him to unlock the door or open up the window... Ms. EV
This is my prayer every day...to serve and follow Jesus Christ with a clean heart
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