I have some very important deadlines coming up pretty soon. In order for me to meet my obligations, there is a key piece of information that I need. I searched the Internet for an answer. I found nothing. I e-mailed a person who I thought would know. She told me to e-mail another person who should know. That person said she didn’t know and copied my question to someone who was doing the job of the person who would know the answer to my question. That person e-mailed me back and said someone else was in charge of the information, but she would not tell me the name of said person, so that I could make contact.
I got frustrated. Then, I heard, “Trust Me.” And, I whined, “God, I do trust You, but I still wanna know!” I almost feel like God laughed at me and I can’t blame Him. I am convinced that He has an awesome sense of humor. Don’t get distracted by trying to figure out what my question was about; just pay close attention. We cannot say we trust God and have to know every step of the plan at the same time.
If you are a control freak like I am, then you understand this struggle. I know it is wrong. I know I have to just trust God. Yet, I still find myself trying to figure out certain things. The beautiful thing is that God knows exactly who I am and He loves me in spite of my shortcomings. I believe that I could not get anyone to give me the answer to my question and I ran into a dead end, so that God could get my attention focused back on trusting Him.
There are so many examples in my life that I could point to where I trusted God and He came through for me in inexplicable ways. It’s actually kind of crazy that in my search for answers, I seem to forget about all of those times. The good news is that I am growing in my faith and I can recognize when I am going off the track of trust. Do I still wanna know the answer to my question? You betcha! But, as Job said, “Yet will I trust Him!” I probably wouldn’t understand the answer if He let me know anyway. When you know God, you don’t have to know all of the answers! Ms. EV